It’s a little over the halfway point of this fast, and I have to say… it’s been one craSy (as my bf LS likes to say, “it’s crazy with an S – craSy!”) and intense journey into the interior of Hannah Lee. I knew deep down that I was one spectacular hot mess most of the time, yet somehow (miraculously) loved, accepted, and chosen by God.. but this has been a re-encounter of that messiness in a whole new way. I’m always amazed at the people who’ve stuck by my side when it’s most chaotic around and inside me, and I find myself constantly thanking God for His presence and blessings.
One fruit of this fast has been that I’ve become acutely aware of my attachments and defense & coping mechanisms, as well as the sweetness of bringing my needs (and neediness) before the Lord. Jesus is SO willing to take it all on.. the Last Supper, the Gethsemane Garden betrayal, the Abuse before the Council, the Walk up to Golgotha, and Cross and the Crucifixion have all taken on a new dimension of feeling, thought, and experience.. the Word of God has become ALIVE and POWERFUL in a heightened way, and though it’s overwhelming at times (to the point I have to stop reading and just sit there and be fully present w/the meanings & implications of the text), I hope it stays this way…
“For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.” (Hebrew 4:12)
I love that my relationship w/God is growing in intimacy & depth through Word, Worship, Sabbath, and Fellowship w/other believers…
And, I’m also improving in my cooking skills! To date, I’ve baked: Eggplant, Brussel Sprouts (LS got me a bag from Costco <3) Spaghetti Squash, & Acorn Squash. Never thought I’d be cooking and eating those vegetables! Next on the menu is: Kale, Butternut Squash, and homemade Hummus.
Overall – Daniel Fast? It’s been CRAY sometimes, but mostly, I’ve loved the fruit, literally and figuratively.
*Note: Celebrating “Jubilee” on Sundays and eating/drinking normally has been helpful for being sustainable 😉 I may try for another Daniel Fast at some point with Sundays included, but for now, it’s been a grace! Very helpful socially, too b/c there’s been a birthday party w/non-vegetarian/vegan food EVERY Sunday so far! Lol..